Dear C,

20Jun08

Sometimes I wish I can have as much energy as you.  I don’t know if it’s insecurity or a need to be liked, but you haven’t stopped talking since you got to the office.  Your energy is great for the office, we need folks like you.  But it can very distracting.  I don’t process outloud.  I like to work in silence, which is ironic to me because I know as a kid my teachers had issues with me talking too much.

I’m trying hard to like you.  You are falling into the category of folks where I like you initially, but then I get to know you more and you get really really annoying.  I don’t know if it’s my trusting nature, but this tends to happen a lot.

I don’t know if it’s a generational thing.  A millineal phenomenon, college students like you, all follow this pattern.  The need to incessantly talk about themselves to prove their own importance to the world.  It’s really nothing new.  While the academics categorize this phenomenon to people born after 1983, I think folks born before that year did the same thing, just in silence.

I know you have amazing potential.  I just need to find the courage to show you how to utilize the big energy that surrounds you.  I need to learn how to tune out your banter and pick out the meaning in your words.  It’s there, somewhere.

There’s a million thoughts running through my mind.  My own frustration in figuring out what I need to do for my sanity gets clouded with the hulabaloo of the office.  I don’t know how I was ever able to get things done in my previous positions.  I somehow was able to do it, but the culture here is so different. 

i have more to say, but I just can’t find the words.  I’ll get back to this later.

L

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