Dear New Horizon,

04Jun08

I know you are a cliche. Everyone, meaning everyone in that way where you say everyone when you have no one to put the blame on…but I digress, yes Everyone says that you are always around the corner. And in my crazy world I think that if I turn a corner there will be a physical representation of a new horizon waiting for me. The cartoon, specifically Disney, specifically Lion King version of a new horizon.

But the truth of the matter is, I live in a cliche. As cheesey as that sounds. I find it true. I’m coming to the conclusion that life is a lifetime of ridiculous cliches. Cliche 1) You never get out of the petty high school gossip bullshit. Cliche 2) You always want to have that older kid take you, the underdog kid, under his/her wing and make you a star. Cliche 3) Happily ever after is what little girls and boys aspire to. Yes I said it boys aspire to it to, that’s what Angels in the Outfield taught me, another Disney answer to questions of life.

But again I digress. Why am I writing this letter to you, New Horizon? Because I feel it. I feel it in the air. I feel your presence all around me, bleeding through my fingers in words. And because it’s the first of the month, not only is rent due, but my monthly trip to astorlogyzone.com. Now my previous history with Astrology was relegated to the Daily News and Los Angeles Times horoscope section my mother would read first. My catholic raised self did not understand why my mom read such “nonsense.” Well truth be told I think it was because my mother needed something else besides jesus and his homies to get her through the rough work week. She may not admit this to herself, strict catholic that she is, but we all need a little something else. That potential edge to get us through the day. For some folks its that toke of herb, that sip of whiskey, that call of coffee. For Mama it was reading what her Pisces forecast had in store for her.

Here’s what my forecast had for me:

Virgo Aug. 23 to Sept. 22
The new moon boosts the opportunity to find a comfortable social milieu with greater camaraderie and deeper, more heartfelt connecting. Of course, it’s all based on your willingness and efforts. Hand on doorknob. Turn. Open. Walk through. Easy as pie.

Whoa.

New Horizon, could you have hit me with a ton of bricks? I mean seriously? That’s the windfall I’ve been feeling right about now. I don’t know what kind of clarity has come with finishing grad school or simply getting to another place in life. But damn… New Horizon, you are fuckin here. And you are yelling at me. Screaming at me. Placing the prize within my reach. And by prize I mean new relationships. Or the ability to cultivate better, stronger, or deeper connections. Hot Damn. That’s what’s going on right now. And you knew it.

It is an amazing sensation. And don’t get any dirty thoughts. Although I know you know those amazing sensations are indeed amazing. There aren’t enough words to express how I feel in an awesome place. Seeing things fall into the right place. It’s like I’m playing a chess game with the scary dude from Ingmar Bergman’s film and I’m winning. And not winning because I’m Bill and/or Ted and I have beat you with my oddly californian laid back wit. No I’m winning because it’s supposed to be that way.

Dude, New Horizon. You are kicking my ass with opportunity. And I’m trying to take it. Just don’t leave me in another cliche, standing in the dust of your shadow.

K.I.T, Take Care Cause I Care, Have a great summer,

L

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